preparation

Instead of readying myself for school I need to commit my memories of last night's dream to written form.

I had the sort of dream that while I know it only lasted for about an hour max, it felt like I had been dreaming it for 15 hours or so.

Someone I have grown increasingly fond of in the past month featured predominantly in the dream. Other key players/scenes/visual triggers: my someone's new fuck-buddy (who exists only in dream form to me, I don't know if this person or concept is real), a pack of caged wolves who took up an entire, massive, snow covered field (in their kennels, standing on top of their "wolf houses" mournfully), a huge group of people I don't know, a white narcissus, my desire for him, and my simultaneous desire for her pain.

While this was only a dream, and one of which I do not have the time to analyze at the moment, it was one that reflects in more or less directness a situation I found myself in a year ago, almost to the date. Competeing for someone with another female, someone I didn't think I would need to be competing for, someone I didn't think would make me compete. I just know I don't need that now, or ever again. Do I follow my dream and cut it off immediately? SID? Shut It Down? Or do I take the dream to be just my subconscious fears flaring up and proceed with business as usual? I wish I knew.

Sounds like it is time for some intense meditation and writing therapy. My dreams are only confusing and frustrating me.