12 January 2010

preparation

Instead of readying myself for school I need to commit my memories of last night's dream to written form.


I had the sort of dream that while I know it only lasted for about an hour max, it felt like I had been dreaming it for 15 hours or so.


Someone I have grown increasingly fond of in the past month featured predominantly in the dream. Other key players/scenes/visual triggers: my someone's new fuck-buddy (who exists only in dream form to me, I don't know if this person or concept is real), a pack of caged wolves who took up an entire, massive, snow covered field (in their kennels, standing on top of their "wolf houses" mournfully), a huge group of people I don't know, a white narcissus, my desire for him, and my simultaneous desire for her pain.


While this was only a dream, and one of which I do not have the time to analyze at the moment, it was one that reflects in more or less directness a situation I found myself in a year ago, almost to the date. Competeing for someone with another female, someone I didn't think I would need to be competing for, someone I didn't think would make me compete. I just know I don't need that now, or ever again. Do I follow my dream and cut it off immediately? SID? Shut It Down? Or do I take the dream to be just my subconscious fears flaring up and proceed with business as usual? I wish I knew.


Sounds like it is time for some intense meditation and writing therapy. My dreams are only confusing and frustrating me.


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I would be remiss if I didn't extend my gratitude to the Fulbright program for this jaw-dropping opportunity, as well as to the Honors Department at the University of Louisville, for its hard work in ensuring my selection as an English Teaching Assistant to Oman for the 2012-2013 year. My brief bio - Born and raised in Amboy, WA, I attended Clark College in Vancouver, before going on to the University of Washington in Seattle where I earned a BFA in Fine Arts - Oil Painting in 2004. I then attended USMC Officer Candidate's School, and accepted a commission as a second lieutenant in the summer of 2005. I served for four years as a logistics officer, stationed in Camp Lejeune and deployed worldwide. After the conclusion of my commission, I moved to Louisville, KY where I attended the University of Louisville, achieving a BA in Art History and a minor in Middle East and Islamic Studies.


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